Tonight - Kids and I watched a Christmas Movie on Netflix. I highly recommend - and it's because Luke Evans does have a wonderful voice. It was a wonderful retelling, the music was beautiful. Just beautiful.
Also - Had a mishap with my pants this afternoon at work. >.< Now to attempt to repair them again.
I really want to go back to being a child! I'm tired of the complexities and the rules of being a proper adult. Can people be just friends? Why does a small town gossip so much. Is it the lack of stimulation, that causes good 'church' folk to talk shit on all the people around them?
Is it the shift in morals, or maybe learning about ourselves and not liking how it bumps against their perceived beliefs and the thought that it should be universal?
Laws, today was a busy day. I'm learning that I can be a whiny ass. I think I am doing a good thing, and making a situation awareness happen. But I'm not. I'm making things worse. I'm coming off as a tattle tale, and I need to stop.
You know - even as we all get older, we still have to learn a lot about our ever changing social exchanges. What was ok one day, is not ok the next. I gotta get over my social anxiety. I was so used to gossip being spread around me, I just get anxious about whispering. I have to get over that. I have to trust people who truly matter, will tell me up front. I have to trust that those who matter when they hear words about me, will measure the value of the message and messenger.
I have goals to do with my whole world. I realize that in two years, I will be 40 with two 18 year olds. I've made most of my adult life about those children and getting them to this age, while I do not regret a thing, but I want to make sure that I am choosing a life that I can also live on my own and beginning to discover who I am and what *I* want. That's a hard thought prospect to get into.
Quote to think on:
“Until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it. ”
– M. Scott Peck
Today was busy, but made you feel accomplished. At least until the migraine hit. The lightning and thunder came in and now my head feels like I have someone pumping a balloon in it.
Big frustration right now as a Type 2 diabetic - I can't get my medication Trulicity. It's sad and frustrating. It reminds me of the time when my thyroid medication was low. I wish our medical system would work on this. Or even look at a way that has less waste? Who knows. The single use instruments can't be good for any environment that is outside a hospital standard. All I can think of is piles of single use injection medications. Even the pre-loaded pens for insulin
I'm proud of my kids, Mister Mister is turning 16 this weekend. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm so happy he's finally reached that age and is actually thriving, however at the same time, I worry about the future. What will it be? I worry that he might actually be successful, and maybe one day want to move to another part of the world, and then be denied due to his diagnosis of Autism?
It's frustrating that there is no perfect human. We all have a flaw, some of us are now taking the time to be properly diagnosed and treated in order to better work through our lives, but then are punished because of stigmas and internalized stereotypes that people who are 'other' are not as valuable or as good at contributing to society. We are touting and preaching 'Be Mental Health Aware' all countries... but then Mental Health concerns can bar you from travel.
Anyways - that's the though that is on my mind today.
Today - I made an effort to fix a perceived break in a friendship. All I can say folks is that often times, we think we've upset someone, and honestly - They are just stressed and shutting down. It's hard to keep that in mind.
Kiddlets are doing ok though. Bug Bug is busy on her homework, and chatting at her friends online. Have to say, kind of miss the parenting thing where an adult would listen in on the phone, or the phone cords. Maybe that's why the ADHD wasn't so prevalent? The cords and buttons on all our old things were a consistent fidget toy!
Enjoy the music -- Lee Brice "Soul"
Learning Goals for 2023:
- Make Rum
- Learn to keep Bees
- Rock the Garden area
Hello fellow web surfer! Welcome to the start of my little portion of the web.
I can't guarantee content of any merit at this point, I can however work to make this trip around the sun boring with my mild adventures, potential cooking disasters, learning lessons and making the most of the coming year.
This folks is my one and only goal for this blog. Also - I believe I can share some awesome music I've come across and that tickle my fancy. With that - I will note that the following link (Link: Apple Music / Ladyfish Recommendations) is my personal adventure playlist that I pull all my newfound musical listens in.
I'm also going to use this blog to track my goals as follows:
💙 Exercise Everyday in some form
💚 Learn to accept the me I am
💛 Expand my crazy gardening ideas out
💜 Use a Disney Meme somewhere, everyday
💙 Write my books, and self publish
Tonight - Kids and I watched a Christmas Movie on Netflix. I highly recommend - and it's because Luke Evans does have a wonderful voice...
