Laws, today was a busy day. I'm learning that I can be a whiny ass. I think I am doing a good thing, and making a situation awareness happen. But I'm not. I'm making things worse. I'm coming off as a tattle tale, and I need to stop.
You know - even as we all get older, we still have to learn a lot about our ever changing social exchanges. What was ok one day, is not ok the next. I gotta get over my social anxiety. I was so used to gossip being spread around me, I just get anxious about whispering. I have to get over that. I have to trust people who truly matter, will tell me up front. I have to trust that those who matter when they hear words about me, will measure the value of the message and messenger.
I have goals to do with my whole world. I realize that in two years, I will be 40 with two 18 year olds. I've made most of my adult life about those children and getting them to this age, while I do not regret a thing, but I want to make sure that I am choosing a life that I can also live on my own and beginning to discover who I am and what *I* want. That's a hard thought prospect to get into.
Quote to think on:
“Until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it. ”
– M. Scott Peck
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